Sunday, December 21, 2008

one PERFECT day...

Today used to be ALL about me but times have changed. I do not care as much about my birthday as I used to. I guess that is what happens when you have children, they become your life & you take a back seat to everything. What I do care about is having some time to myself & having some PEACE & QUIET. These are a few hard commodities that I find hard to achieve. We have WONDERFUL children but lately all they seem to do is whine & I cannot take it. Heck, Michael cannot take it either. He says that he wants to give them away. I am sure that he is only kidding! I think that is something you say when times get tough and you are at your wits end! ha! It's just that there are very few days that I can take for myself, to just "be". I was hoping today could be that day. It did not start out good and continued to get worse. I worked till 3am, yes I have a part-time job with some late night hours. I should never have scheduled myself so late but I did & I had to deal with it. Now if I could just get 7 hours of rest, not even REM sleep, just rest. This did not happen, I was awoken by four SCREAMING babies before 8am. I never was able to get back to sleep so now I was one cranky woman. Being a mommy to four 23 month olds is tough work & I need all the rest I can get! My hubby even made me breakfast, I love him for that but it was not what I would have wanted for breakfast. Note to self: Share what you'd like to eat a few days before your day so hubby knows & does not have to read my mind! He made the babies Banana Nut French Toast & also made some for me. I wanted steak & eggs. So with my first bite it tasted weird & it did not get any better. I knew if I shared this with him he would be upset & if I did not say anything he would make it for me again saying you loved it on your birthday. What was I to do? I have always been one that holds the truth very dear so I decided to just spill it. That continued the downward spiral of my day. Couldn't he see that I just wanted a day to myself!? That I did not want anything. I do not need any gifts. I think the best "gift" would have been a babysitter for the weekend. To be able to do anything without having to worry about four little people. I will have to remember this for next year. I hope one year soon to FINALLY get...


one PERFECT day...

1 comments:

Charity Donovan said...

Oh girl...I so feel your quad momma pain. Just 5 minutes to read a book is a miracle at times! Well, here's someone wishing you a very happy birthday....next year! lol!

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