Friday, January 9, 2009

dreams...

Lately I have been dreaming ALOT! I do not know why just that I attribute it to getting MORE sleep. I need that! Anyhow, Last night I had the strangest dream. I dreamt that Michael, Dustyn, my Mom, the babies & I all were on a trip where we rented a house. I have no idea where this house was just that it was some place warm. Somehow I had just Camryn with me, I know you all will say that is because she is my favorite, but that is not true! She was just with me & we needed to go back to "our" house to get some things before we met up with the rest of my clan. I remember thinking to myself that everyone was some place else so the house would be empty. I unlock the door and start towards the bedroom when I hear a noise like someone is there. Then I look up & there in the doorway stood my father, my deceased father. Now you need to know for approximately 6 years before his death my father was in a wheelchair. He had a paralyzed right arm and only stood up when he walked to and from the front door, car, shower, etc. In this dream he was not in a wheelchair or sick at all, he was getting changed for dinner & then proceeded to ask me where all my children were. I think my mouth was gaped open from being stunned to see him there because all I said was that Camryn is here. Then the dream gets EVEN weirder. His right arm was the size of a childs but worked & was good as new. I told you it was a weird dream! I stood there watching my child, the one that looks most like him, in his arms, giggling and saying "Hi Grand Dad". I was in awe! I always tell my children that he is around them. I do not want them to forgot the short time they did have with him so I continually ask them to tell me where he is. They will point up to Heaven or to their hearts, you see he is in their hearts. When I woke up I was really amazed that I even remembered it. My father passed away 16 months ago. I mean what does it all mean? They say that dreams NEVER mean what they seem. In my mind this dream sort of represented what I think my children missed out on, a Grand Dad that they will have memories with. All I have these days are...



dreams...

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