Friday, May 1, 2009

trenches...

I am DEEP into the trenches of the "terrible twos" and I do not know how to get out of them. The last week has been a rough one! I have cried practically every day. God love my hubby for taking those tear filled calls. What I have been experiencing my girlfriend Desiree says best, "Tantrum Rodeos". LOL! Some days thats exactly how I feel, like I fought a bull & the bull won! I'm SO EXHAUSTED! I feel like I cannot listen to another hysterical cry or anymore stomping feet! This one took this one's toy or that one has this one's cup. They sure know what buttons to push! They make my nights LONG and my days even LONGER! Each day I wake up telling myself that this day will be better than the last & I am ALWAYS wrong! I have all of these ideas on how to make our home MUCH more liveable. Like first off since we cannot have a basement( SO want a basement!) to corral them into then I want a "kid" room. A place for them to have completely. A place they can do whatever in. We do not have a home big enough for us all so we need to do something QUICK! It is terrible how they wreck the place. They think they have free reign over everything & just when I clean up one mess there goes another one. Other than putting EVERY item from inside our home out in our garage out of their reach, I do not know what I should do! The only time they listen is if I tell them I have a bug. Yes our kids LOVE bugs. I cannot tell you how many times I have lied about catching a bug for them to come to me. CRAZY huh!? They bang things on the windows, they try to unlock doors, pull things off the counters, grab things off the side of the fridge or better yet wave the broom towards the walls trying to knock down the pictures. They are WILD! I take them outside & they try to push out the screens or make holes in them. Then when they have something they should not have they will run faster as I chase them through the house like it is one BIG joke. I know I'll laugh about it when they are older but right now all I want to do is cry. I get SO upset & I feel that they are putting me to an early grave. My wish to become a mommy was not granted for me to get this upset. There are few people that I can call that can relate to my struggles. We had it SO easy when they were babies. They ate when they were suppose to, slept through the night since 4 months, rarely cried & most of all loved being in their stroller! Now the hell begins! Most people including my hubby say they are just kids. Yes I realize this BUT no woman should ever have to go through what I go through. My quad PLUS momma friend Joellen will call me from time to time because she has been there, done that. She senses my frustration and trys to make me see that this too will pass. I really do think that I have aged quite a bit these past few months. Some days I have no energy to red up anything. I hope when they grow up they will appreciate the sacrifices I have made. I hope they will remember the happy times instead of these CRAZY times! Does it ever get better? PLEASE help me get through this! If there is anyone out there that knows how I feel or experienced the same PLEASE give me pointers on what to do! With a LOT of prayer I hope to get out of these...

trenches...


5 comments:

alana said...

Oh Cathy, I feel like I could have written this myself! My 4 are little crazy people too. They have managed to break a baby gate, warp/jam another one that was expensive and professionally installed on the stairs. Now they can climb OVER that expensive useless gate. Anything in their reach on the counter , that they can also climb up the handles of the cabinets to get to, is going to be all over the house/floor, including large blue powerade cups, pizza boxes, soap, papers, you understand. they will not keep their pants and/or diapers on, but refuse to do anything on the potty. People tell me I'm going to miss these days, but honestly, I do not think so AT ALL. I've started popping them/spanking them and they just do the same thing (i.e., getting on top of the nice dining room table with their shoes on and SWINGING from the chandeleir, pulling my drapes down from the hooks and dismantling their cribs while they're supposed to be napping). I feel bad for my 7 year old, b/c he does not get near enough of our attention, and he's a great kid. Anyway, no tips really, just know that I do sympathize with you! We will get through this! Praying for you,
Alana

Jac Tubre said...

Oh girl, I am no help here, but I WILL pray for you!! I'm not looking forward to this stage :)

Jac

Rachael said...

i wish i had help, but we are nearing that stage now and i fear what our future holds. sending lots of hugs to you.

Jenny said...

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Jennifer @ Conversion Diary said...

I have four children under age 5, so I can relate in many ways to what you're going through. There are days where I feel that I just cannot control the chaos. I clean something up and while I'm doing that they destroy something else; I go to clean up what they destroyed and they've messed up something else. It's insane.

The one thing that has helped me is to make sure I get a good break every day, at least 1.5 hours, but hopefully a little more. It's not easy -- it's required working really hard to get them on a schedule, which is especially difficult since they're all different ages -- but it has been SO worth it. Knowing that I'll get a break every day to relax and recoup helps me get through it. My husband and I also take turns on the weekends taking all the kid out of the house so that one of us can do a little cleaning and restore it to order, which is very helpful.

Anyway, you'll be in my prayers!

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